Tracking my HCG Diet!

Day 4- (first 500 cal day).... Well, the load days were a mixture of emotion. I was SO excited to eat what I wanted, when I wanted. But, I couldnt bring myself to do it like I though I would. I felt so disgusting. I have been trying to eat so healthy these past months, just to eat like a TOTAL fatty! I did not like it. Until last night. When I had my last meal. Which consisted of the MOST AMAZING chocolate doughnuts from Entemanns.... I feel disgusting, but better. I know that I made this worth it.
I am more upset today about not being able to put creamer in my coffee than not being able to eat breakfast. Strange right???